Ok so tomorrow there are shoots going on at my house for my site and today I am getting ready for them by building and painting some sets and sewing outfits and getting my toes and nails done and well…you name it! ahaha

Here is a pic preview of the next update that is going up on my site. It actually goes up tomorrow/Thursday while we are shooting new stuff. TODAY however at 4:00 pm Pacific time I will be running my voyeur cam. That is when my cam runs in my home while I do everyday life stuff. It’s pretty fun. It’s like being a fly on the wall of my silly life and I chat with the members off and on during the day/evening. I hope you all are having a great day. I am now off to do errands before I have to be back and ready for the voyeur cam! woohoo…

feeling much better then I was earlier. Whew. Sometimes you’re just chemically off you know? It sems to really hit me like ton of bricks sometimes….especially with all that I am going through right now. I’m over the hump of ickiness that set it earlier. I am now off to run errands and won’t be back for many hours. Charging my camera now to take some pics of random everyday stuff  within the world of…me. hahaha

Ok so today is FINALLY the end of Mercury retrograde so at least SOME of the madness that’s been going on since the 6th is coming to an end. A lot of is just life though. I mean yippee for Mercury retrograde being over but all of the stuff going on in my real life is still very much going on…and it’s a lot. These next couple weeks for me will be some of the most turbulant hardest ones there have been in a while. In the midst of it allI still have to do all of the things that are necessary to just get through life and work. Waiting for the results of a Leukemia test is so not even the worst of it. That should tell you something about it all. I am about to dry my hair and straighten it and go through aworkout because I have to stay in shape for work right?…and then I will go and get a pedicure and run  some errands and then come home later tonight and start doing a million things to build sets for my shoot on Thursday. Somehow in the midst of it all I have to keep smiling and stay positive? Sometimes it’s just too much. Today is one of those days. You know the ones? The ones where you feel the weight of life’s tests and burdens. yep. I am really feeling it today

Ok today is Saurday and I haven’t writtten anything in my blog for a few days. I have had out of state guests and have been dealing with a TON of work and health stuff. It’s cool. I just have a pretty fool plate right now. I have had s little downtime though. I went shopping for a bit yesterday to get some new outfits for my shoot this coming week for my site. I found some great stuff. Some cool new stuff and some cool vintage stuff to mix with my own stuff that I already have. I went to an Irish pub a couple blocks away and had a drink with one of my best friends to have a long talk about life and everything that’s going on. It was nice. I actually got a few hours of sleep last night and will be working on catching up on stuff this afternoon and evening.  I will be working on updates for my site and getting my financial shit in order for a REALLY important appointment tomorrow afternoon. It’s a Saturday but it totally feels like a Sunday. Reeeeeaally mellow and yet the kind of day where I have to “get ready” for tomorrow and I find myself thinnking a lot about…everything

pics from a recent update on my site. Of course the really dirty ones or in the members area. Gotta keep the good stuff for my members. tee hee…

As far as the war I’ve been fighting….I think I am starting to win that war. I am feeling like my throats a bit better and if I keep taking everything I am taking that I will be good in a couple of days..but progressivley better until then. It’s cool. Now that I am starting to feel better I will just keep taking everything and at least I will get some errands run this afternoon and get out of the house! Ugh. I’ve been trapped here feeling like crap with no cable and no company except my little angel. My kitty cat Saki. Anyone want to come over for some soup? hahaha I am soooo sick of soup. I have been living off of soup and veggies for days. I’m going to be too skinny by the time I’m well again hahaha

Ok so as you know I have been sick for days and I am a naturopath as fara s my medicinal choices for the most part. As of today I really think it’s started to show  change. It better for all that I’ve been doing. On top of it all Niteflirt’s site has been down for like a week and STILL is and they say it will be down for another week or so? WTF? I guess the universe is REALLY wanting me to rest! hahaha. It’s cool. Now I don’t feel guilty at all for all that I am doing to take care of myself. I wll go out and run some errands this afternoon and work on my site stuff and other stuff and just keep on keepin on. I thought you guys would get a kick out of seeing all that I have been using to fight my sicky cold war. The maturral meds are the scientific part. The kitty cat has been my company on the sofa hahahah

ok…so…many of you out there know that I am an artist by nature. I paint and I write. Those are the things that  I love 2 do above all else. No I don’t post them and no you can’t see them anywhere. Let me just stop you right there before you even email me or ask because those things are very private to me and it’s not for public consumption. Only the outer shell is….for now anyway. Ok so I have a point. I have had a horrible sore throat and majorly swollen glands on my right side and right tonsil is huge and what not. Many many …MANY years ago I dated this douchebag that was part owner of a snowboarding company at the time. No it does not exhist any longer and no I am not going to say the name of it. Anyway the main artist there who did all of the artwork on the boards was a bit of a meth head.  When he would sleep for days at a time or not get the orders done I was asked to help and do so. I airbrushed plenty of snowboards and got a lot of the screens started on tons of orders etc. I remember this dude (the meth head) telling me that if you get a sinus in fection you should open up a goldenseal capsule and actually snort it. It willl go straight up into your sinus’s and kill the infection and you’re supposed to hold it in as long as you can and then you blow your nose like a ton of times just to get all of it (the goldenseal….and of course the infection along with it)  out. Anyway…I have been doing everything the naturopath way. I’ve been eating tons of organic soup  (both chicken AND vegetable) and taking colodial silver, echinacea, goldenseal, emergenC, Sambucus w/elderberry extract. I mean YOU NAME IT! It’s getting worse. I thought and I thought so i remembered what that wierd meth head told me yeeeears ago and I opened up one of the goldenseal capsules and gave the sonrting a whirl. It was AWFUL! I guess I must be desperate if I am trying shit like THAT! hahaha. I will give it a few more days of my naturopath bullshit and then maybe have to actually pay to go to the Dr. DAMMIT! hahahahah

after the tat shop I came home to my cable being out. Thank God I have DSL for internet hahaha. I mean…I’m screwed without internet for work  ya know? I am just thinking back about being on the beach. Ahhhhh yes. This is where I am in my mind

As I have mentioned before I have to get my work done tiny lil’ bit by tiny lil’ bit due to time and of course money as well. I had a little work done today on my arm God that has been unfinsihed FOREVER. We willed him in a little bit. He is a metamorphasis of  yound Buddha old Buddha and Shiva the Hindu Deity all in one. I also had my little elephants done on the inside from lower shoulders near where my arm meets y boobs hahaha. Here’s a little preview peek of how it’s all coming together. Still soooooooo much to do but hopefullt it will be done at some point. Maybe a couple years from now hahahahahha.